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Thursday, January 28, 2010

Post again today haha. Today went back to secondary school to find cameron then thanks to weiling, she kept me in school for so long just to teach her chinese, i was like 'omg' i dont even freaking remember the format for chinese essay lor!!! lols. In the end just because of her i have to try my best to scoop up those memory that is buried deep in my brain, my brain almost burst. I try my very best to help her then she say i bully her, shit la ahahah. Then after that went to find junhao and congrats to him, he finally bought the white guitar that he like alot and after that went to bus stop with weiling to see her off. Dont know why halfway walking with junhao i have mixed feeling sia and all the way very sian maybe is because he keep talking about the girl he like then i suddenly very sian liao, so good lor he want jio girls like very easy like that, sometimes very envy him :( I just not suit in this kind of love thingy bah. Two days ago, while i sleeping i had a dream and dreamt about her but a dream is just a dream, there is no way it can become a reality. And i got a very bad dream which i saw yueming, he call me say he has a sickness and he will be dying, it was so damn scary!!! Suddenly i dream of a room which i never see before and i found out that actually the room is where yueming is living, i went to find him and i didnt see him on his bed, i quickly call him ask him where he is but he just die die also dont tell me where he is. i wanted to find him but he say he dont want to let me see him, my tears almost burst out ah fk. I just realise how important my friend is, i cant afford to lose them at all, i only know that the most scary part is when i know yueming is dying but he just dont let me see him the last time, i was so scared and freak out, even i know it was just a dream but i just will feel scared and really feel like crying. I didnt know i can be so weak when my friends will be leaving me. Hope i wont get this kind of scary dream again!!!!!

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Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Went out with junhao today, erm...we went to bukit merah cut hair and now my hair is so fucking short!! OMG!! Then we went to...hmm, oh remember liao, we went tiong play tune then went to jurong east coz he want buy guitar then go boon lay then after that go back jurong east again then went to city hall, in the end he never buy the guitar, going to buy with him 2morrow when he finish work. That idoit change my itouch de wallpaper. lols. Thats all, oh ya, sylvester really piss me off want slap him sia, lols. Maybe will post again 2morrow. hah.

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Sunday, January 24, 2010

为什么爱情里会有一见钟情，为什么我每次都总是会喜欢上一个素不相识的女人？就是不知道为什么明知自己不会有任何希望，可还是越陷越深。明明已经打算放弃了，对自己说要放弃但是有多少人做得到？我也不例外。就算和朋友说要放弃了，自己也打算要放弃但我心里还是不死心，即使我对全部的朋友说我会放弃但是我骗得过自己的内心吗？就算骗了朋友和自己，但终究骗不了自己的心。可能我像以前一样需要时间吧。现在我会放下爱情，只重视友情，现在朋友才是我永不停蹄的灵丹妙药！我也不清楚自己能不能放得下，但我会尽力而为。加油！！：）

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Tuesday, January 19, 2010

当我们再次擦身而过时，可能已经不再认得对方了吧。她换了一个新的发型，我还以为我会不认得她而且我还有近视，哈哈。但是我却在远处就能认出她，虽然一直告诉自己不要再看她，要忘记她可是我办不到，我还是会在意她甚至想看到她，能看多久就多久。我想我暂时还放不下她吧。虽然朋友说她绑了个小马尾不好看而且看起来比之前胖，但对我来说，不管怎么样我都不介意。

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Wednesday, January 6, 2010

Today was so tiring because i have to work and so damn hungry lor. lols. Even when i say i am damn tired to the core after working, i still went to jog for maybe 30 minutes, i was kinda weird today, and now my thighs are so tired and ma chiam weak until like tofu lidat haha.. Today totally not in the mood to work and i broke 2 glasses and keep thinking of something, think until i completely 入神 liao, i also dunno why i will keep thinking about the msg she sent me last time, then suddenly no mood to do anything already. Actually she sent me de msg should be wanted me to know that i stand no chance for her bah, whatever i say to her, her reply will only be 'ok thanks' hahas maybe she dun even want to talk to me, hahas. Of course, everyone will have a target that they like,that includes her, i like her but she likes other people, this is what reality is, we won't be able to achieve anything even how hard we try! I am just out of my mind la, i also dunno why i like her that much, i only know that no matter how hard i try, i will still stand no chance, she wont like me at all lols. When you are discouraging yourself while you are running, it helps to self motivate yourself, so you will keep on jogging non-stop, this is the only way which will lead me jog on, i am just useless lah, no matter who i like i also wont stand a chance. I really dun dare to hope for anything anymore! I hate this feeling of standing no chance for anyone i like! It really sucks to the core!

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Friday, January 1, 2010

Finally 2009 has ended and 2010 is here, welcome 2010!!! LOLS! People having fun and i have to work today and tomorrow, sian...haha. Bo bian, i muz accept reality, hope tomorrow don't have to do so much, hais..... Finally, welcome, 2010!! lols..

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