| I really hate myself for loving you so much, how come i am so "interested" in you that i really can't forget you and want to be with you? I have been thinking hardly that what is so good about you, knowing that you will not like me but i still keep thinking about you so much? Friends have been telling me ' don't give up the whole forest just because of one tree, you will definitely find a new one', of course i know it but i just couldn't find that special feeling from other girls that i had with 'her'! If i can choose, it would be great that i can be born one year earlier than my birthday so we will not have the age gap, i really don't understand, i was just one year younger than her and what's the big deal, does that mean i can't be with her? If that's the case, then FINE, i will accept the fact, overmore, i was being avoided by you, i hate this feeling it causes my heart ache. I should just accept the fact, i will forget her, no, is i 'must' forget her and i will forever disappear from her, that should cause her less trouble, i think.. Now is 12am midnight, from this time onwards, i will not remember her, delete every of her contacts which include her msn. Jun hao told me not to delete it because he doesn't want me to have any regrets, over here i wanted to thank his opinion, but i really have to do this and i will not regret for what i did.. Hope what i am doing is correct.. Today intend to memorise physics formula but i forget to bring my textbook home, so unlucky, haha... Goodbye.... Florence Tan~~~ |